The Metamorphosis: A Late Night Musing

I was up super late a few nights ago. It’s kind of become my norm while I have been unemployed. I wrote what is below as I was thinking about where I am now and where I have come from and where I went to go. The main thing is direction. I believe I haveContinue reading “The Metamorphosis: A Late Night Musing”

Christmas: It’s A Love/Hate Kind Of Thing

We have made it through another Christmas! Here in central Illinois it was a white Christmas for the first time in a while. At least it feels like it’s been a while. Houses throughout our neighborhood were lit up in all kinds of ways. Christmas trees were up, decorated, and loaded with presents underneath. TheContinue reading “Christmas: It’s A Love/Hate Kind Of Thing”

Not Going Down This Time…Nope!

I have to start out by saying I have been feeling much better as of late. It started about a couple of months ago. I have been hopeful that the new medication combo would finally be the one. It started out well, but in the back of my mind I knew I wasn’t quite there.Continue reading “Not Going Down This Time…Nope!”

Short Terms Goals Achieved Through Increments. This Is The Mission.

The Mission: To achieve going to not one Pearl Jam show in a crowded arena, but making it to three Pearl Jam shows in one week. To show yourself you can do it. To show yourself you can survive in big crowds again. To rekindle your love of going to live concerts. To enjoy theContinue reading “Short Terms Goals Achieved Through Increments. This Is The Mission.”

I Could Stay In Bed Or I Can Push Back

Saturday, September 10th As I write this, I find myself on an airplane. If you had asked me 3 days ago if I would be on this plane I’m not sure I would have given a confident yes. The last few days have been really rough. Everything I am trying to manage reared it’s headContinue reading “I Could Stay In Bed Or I Can Push Back”

When Introversion Becomes Borderline Reclusive With A Sprinkle Of Distance

I’ve had a lot of thoughts filling my head lately and sometimes it feels like nothing is going on up there. It’s been a strange time. I feel like I have a ton to spill out on the pages, but I tend to be faced with the same thing…I have no idea where to start.Continue reading “When Introversion Becomes Borderline Reclusive With A Sprinkle Of Distance”

A Hiatus, But It Was More Than That

There comes a time when you are rolling right along, the ideas are coming from all directions, and then WHAM…NOTHING! It’s strange. The ideas just disappear. It’s not just writers block as this has affected everything I have been creating. Writing, art, videos, podcasts…everything! I call this a creative block. It has hit me kindContinue reading “A Hiatus, But It Was More Than That”

The Creek Flows On

One of my favorite childhood memories is going camping in Missouri with my family. We went with multiple other families, so there was a good size group of us. The main draw was the tubing and the canoeing we would do on the creek that flowed next to the campground. We also swam a ton.Continue reading “The Creek Flows On”

New Rules Hokey Pokey And Me

The hokey pokey. Who remembers the hokey pokey? You put your left foot in. You put your left foot out. You put your left foot in and you shake it all about. You do the Hokey Pokey and you turn yourself about…that’s what it’s all about. And it builds from something like that. I rememberContinue reading “New Rules Hokey Pokey And Me”

Where To Go Next

It has been a while since I last wrote. I hope everyone is good! And If not, that is OK. It is OK to not be OK. This is something I want to scream from the highest and the lowest places on Earth for all to hear. We need to make this idea the norm.Continue reading “Where To Go Next”