Holiday Season 2021: Weird, Different, Good, (Did I Say Weird?)

The Christmas and New Year’s season blew in like a freight train barreling down the tracks and you are sitting at the train crossing waiting for it to pass. You can hear it. You can see it. You have to be patient with it. It shakes the ground. You can’t ignore it. And then itContinue reading “Holiday Season 2021: Weird, Different, Good, (Did I Say Weird?)”

The Giant Elephant In My Room

Throughout my blogging journey, I have written a lot. I feel like I have covered so many different aspects of my journey. Along the way I have tried to be as open and honest about what and how I am dealing with my depression and anxiety. I have really enjoyed writing these blogs as itContinue reading “The Giant Elephant In My Room”

Dreading An Event Which Ends Up Not Being Dreadful (How Is This Even Possible?)

Jump on a plane they said. Fly down to Orlando they said. Meet up with a couple hundred of your closest work peers over a couple of days they said. Eeeek! Eeeek is right! This is the reality I was faced with this past week. I have been dreading this moment ever since it appearedContinue reading “Dreading An Event Which Ends Up Not Being Dreadful (How Is This Even Possible?)”

I Can Feel The Turn (A Journey Through Space And Medication Adjustments)

The last time we joined yours truly he was taking a huge first step…again. It’s called a first step, even though this first step has been taken before, because sometimes we have to take things back to almost a square-one mentality. I had gotten away from some practices which had always worked for me afterContinue reading “I Can Feel The Turn (A Journey Through Space And Medication Adjustments)”

It All Starts With The First Step

It has been a dizzying couple of months. Especially the last three weeks. The fog re-set in and I have felt like I have been coasting along. My thoughts have not been great and they haven’t been focused on building myself up. My motivation has been terrible and nothing seems to interest me like itContinue reading “It All Starts With The First Step”

Accountability: That Thing We (I) Need From Time To Time

I’ve been really up and down lately. I’d say definitely more down than up. These times provide me an opportunity to take a look at myself and ask “Why do I feel this way?”. “Is there something I can identify and work on or is it something else?”. I absolutely hate these moments of feelingContinue reading “Accountability: That Thing We (I) Need From Time To Time”

When Moving Forward Isn’t The Right Answer

You are driving along. The music is cranked as the radio is playing one of your favorite songs. You can’t help but sing along at the top of your lungs. The sun is shining and the road ahead doesn’t appear to have much traffic. It’s really the perfect day for a drive. You are feelingContinue reading “When Moving Forward Isn’t The Right Answer”

What If I Had Stayed In My Room?

What if I had stayed in my room? It is a valid question. The answer wasn’t easy. I very easily could have stayed in my room. My mind was telling me to stay in my room. My anxiety was way up. I felt overwhelmed. My thoughts were racing and I couldn’t focus. How am IContinue reading “What If I Had Stayed In My Room?”

I’m Dizzy From All This Spinning: The Return To One Of My Elements

The world continues to open up even during what still remains to be a crazy time. I know many want to declare the pandemic over, but it just simply is not true. Through all of this, we are still trying to get back to a normal feeling. A comfortable feeling. We crave a feeling someContinue reading “I’m Dizzy From All This Spinning: The Return To One Of My Elements”

Dream A Little Dream With Me (Or A Big Dream)

This past weekend was another weekend spent with friends. These friends of ours are long time friends. My wife grew up with them and they have been her life-long friends. The best friends to have. I love hanging out with my long-time friends and I love hanging out with her long-time friends. Really, over allContinue reading “Dream A Little Dream With Me (Or A Big Dream)”